This is a NHS website that has links to many different organisations helplines (UK) – https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/stress-anxiety-depression/mental-health-helplines/
This is an American website that has different organisations help lines – https://psychcentral.com/lib/common-hotline-phone-numbers/
A Australian helpline for mental health – https://www.healthdirect.gov.au/mental-health-helplines
This is a website that has many different helplines for those of you in Europe – https://ec.europa.eu/digital-single-market/en/116-helplines
Please, if you need help talk to someone.
I’m sorry for what you are going through, but be strong. You can get through it, I know you can.
Much love babes,